mommy or auntie?

ugh...today was disappointing. when i woke up, i was still puffy. i kept looking in the mirror like wtf??? i don't know why, but i feel like on day i'll wake up and it'll all be gone. i can't wait to be back to normal! i slept okay for about 5 hours, but then i started getting cramps in my feet and kept having to get out of bed to make them go away. so from 5 to 8 it was a pretty fitful sleep. then when i woke up for good, i realized that my knee is broken, not to mention my fingers and wrists. ow. things hurt. making breakfast was a challenge...how come i haven't hired a chef yet? so as i've come down on the prednisone, my arthritis pain has started to come back. damn. holding babies all weekend probably didn't help, but isn't that my grand plan anyway? maybe i'm not cut out for this mommy stuff after all.

getting dressed is interesting these days...i have exactly one pair of pants for work that are comfortable and 3 others that will pass for fitting. now i'm wearing some clothes that are maternity clothes! they're comfortable and they fit so that's what i'm going to wear. now for shoes...my left foot is so swollen that wearing shoes is becoming more and more difficult. not sure what i'm going to do about that.

if you're wondering what babies i'm referring to, they're my sister's babies. i'm so in love with them! i spent the weekend at her house to celebrate their first birthday. we had so much fun...here are some pics.

you can see how cute they are and how puffy i still am. they are so wonderful and it was great to see my family. mom was there and dad too...had some great conversation and laughs with everyone! like my friend said to me when i got home, the trip was great medicine for me. she's right.