Dreamin

well i had a disturbing dream last night...although it was somewhat comforting at the same time. as you know by now, jeff and i have been trying to get pregnant for a long time...like close to 3 years. during this time, i've never had a dream where we've been playing the role of parents. it was almost like my mind wouldn't let me go there...wouldn't want to get my hopes up! anyway this year we've been feeling good and stable, even been "trying"...that is, when we're physically in the same state. apparently jeff's company doesn't understand that we kinda have to be in the same state during this "trying" process.

on to the dream...we were new parents with a brand new baby. what i remember most is that both of us were exhausted. so exhausted that we were making poor decisions and forgetting important things. like putting the diaper on the baby! haha...jeff fell asleep holding the baby and she (yes SHE) peed on him, which woke him up and he went and put a diaper on her. then in the next scene, i fell asleep with her on me and we woke up with poop all over. in fact it had spread so far that she had it in her hands...which as you know always end up in the baby's mouth. EWWWWW!!!! so then i got upset with jeff because he hadn't put the diaper on right. what a mess! i guess practice makes perfect...we'll get there.

i'm just happy that i had a dream where we were parents...gives me hope :)